I have always loved children and for as long as I can remember, I knew that I wanted to be a mother. After 6 months of trying to conceive, I had a really bad feeling that there was something wrong. After a year of trying this was confirmed when we were sent to a fertility clinic. My husband had a low sperm count and low motility. We started with an IVF/ICSI cycle straight away. I had 2 embryos transferred and they both took. We were so excited. Having a twin pregnancy wasn't easy, as I am tiny.

6 months later I went into premature labour and gave birth to 2 beautiful girls. I could never prepare myself for what happened next. I lost one of the babies and the other was critically ill. My other daughter did survive and I am very grateful for that but nothing will ever take away the pain of losing her sister.

3yrs later my husband and I have been trying to add to our family but have been unsuccessful after 2 more IVF cycles and 5 frozen cycles. I did get pregnant with one, but miscarried.

We feel very alone as our families just seem to think because we got pregnant the first time so easily (that's how they see it) that it will happen again. They don't understand the constant rollercoaster of emotions we all go through.

I have just done another frozen cycle and haven't told a soul. Lets hope this is the end of my ride.