Faeryfly73

Originally Posted by Faeryfly73

Hi ladies! I have been reading through your posts and congrats to those of you with BFP! Here is my story so far:

On my 21st birthday 9 years ago, I was diagnosed with endometriosis. I was told to either "get pregnant or have a hysterectomy"! Well, as my now husband and I were not married at the time, rushing into pregnancy didn't seem like the best option for us and I certainly wasn't going to have a hysterectomy! So, my Dr. put me on continuous birth control. The thought was that this would suppress my system and keep the endometriosis from growing. Well after three years of this, my hubby and I got married and I stopped the pills. After two years of "unofficially" trying, I consulted with my regular OBGYN who gave me Clomid. I took this for 6 months without any success. I then went to see a specialist who kept me on clomid and we tried IUI with trigger shot for three unsuccessful attempts. I switched specialists who switched me from Clomid to Femara and we tried 5 more IUI's without success. In between these tries, I had several more laporoscopies (SP?) to remove scar tissue. In 2010, we took a break from trying meds and IUI's and I had one more surgery. I went on an all natural food diet and lost 27lbs, I was running a lot and feeling good and had given up on having a baby naturally. We started looking into adoption but decided that for now, that was not an option. In January 2011, I learned I was pregnant! We were totally surprised and elated to say the least, what a perfect miracle! We didn't tell anyone until I was 10 weeks along. We saw a heartbeat at 6 weeks and at 8 weeks and were assured that "after an established heart beat, the chances of miscarriage were minimal". We were so happy! We painted the baby room and surprised the grandparents by showing them our latest remodeled room. It was a great weekend! On the following Monday, after the big surprise, I was 11 weeks along and started bleeding. It was horrible! I rushed into the ER where they said that I was "most likely going to miscarry and there wasn't anything they could do". I went home heartbroken and called my OBGYN. They rushed me into emergency DNC since it was a "missed miscarriage". After that, I stayed numb for the next two months, I don't remember much of it. Then I started acupuncture, we tried one more IUI and failed. Then in September I started the IVF process. Our first cycle was cancelled after I started bleeding heavily on the Lupron. We started the second cycle in November and they had me take BCP along with Lupron which helped. On November 28th, we had our retrieval. We only got 4 eggs. Three fertilized but one fizzled out. The other two embryos were 6 cell and 8 cell, perfect little embryos. I was so sad that was all we got since I didn't think we could afford to do it all again! We put both embryos in on December 2nd and my first BETA was yesterday. Well, yesterday AM, I started spotting. I went into the Dr. anyway and they gave me extra progesterone, drew my blood and did an ultrasound and sent me home to "relax", HA! I waited ALL day for that call and finally at 5:30pm, the Dr. called and said my test was negative. We are both so depressed. I don't know what to do from here. I don't know why I responded so poorly to the stims or why the embryos didn't implant. I don't know that I will ever know. Thank you for listening to my story. I hope to start again next month but we will have to scrape together money first. BABY DUST to everyone out there!